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Field Notes
Whispers from the resonance field
These are fragments — glimpses of truth as it murmurs through our breaths.
Not essays or lessons. Not for consumption — but for remembering.
You’ll find in here musings on presence and paradox:
questions of purpose that feel both necessary and unnecessary,
sorrow & creation entwined,
those moments when the infinite knocks at the door of the finite.
Return here when silence feels loud.
When you sense there is more in the edges.
When you want your nervous system to recognize safety in stillness.
Each note is a portal.
You’ll know which ones are meant for you.
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Blog 24: Connection Across Dimensions: A Living Field Map
The word connection gets passed around a lot. In conversation. In healing spaces. In relationships. In business. But rarely do we question what we really mean when we use it. Or, better said—from where are we meaning our ask? What dimension of experience are we speaking from when we crave it, offer it, or mourn its absence? I remember my own echoes: "I want connection." It’s simple. "I want presence, meaning." Why can’t "they" get it? See it? After all, it’s right there play
ancakuns
Oct 24, 20256 min read
Blog 23: When Empathy Leaks and Compassion Holds (...or why your spiritual exhaustion might be coming from being "too caring")
The two of us were sipping pumpkin lattes in the coffee shop within that sacred midday hum when the world slows down just enough to reflect. Our conversation, as usual, slipped into that liminal space—part story, part observation, part field analysis. We weren’t gossiping. Just observing. Replaying a few interactions from the week before, like post-game footage, but softer. One moment stood out. It was a conversation where presence was beautifully held. No fixing. No subtle “
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Oct 21, 20253 min read
Blog 22: If all is contained within the ALL, then why isn’t shallow or mundane ok?
It took me a long time to realize I had a strong fear toward being shallow. Stuff had to be meaningful, deep—you know? And by stuff, I mean everything : conversations, relationships, my work, other people’s work I came in contact with … food, fabrics … all da stuff. There couldn’t be any loss of time in this life. Only quality. So I climbed that ladder—this internal standard I had inherited or absorbed (from the Germans, probably)—until I couldn’t find the everyday anymore. T
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Oct 16, 20252 min read
Blog 21: Teach Me to Be Your Voice | When Inspiration Trusts You
Teach me to be your voice! Teach me to hold you in sacred seeing. Unbothered. In Love. Simply in Love. Allow me to get softer … so I can receive your brave moment for entrusting me with your tone. I allow your expression. And know it doesn’t have to be brilliant. It doesn’t have to be complete. Just real. Here. And such is the thread of inspiration. We identify with our creation or think it’s us expressing. I seem to have emptied enough to see that this is not the case.
ancakuns
Oct 15, 20252 min read
Blog 20: Who Are You Without Something to Heal? | The Exit Ramp from Self-Improvement
I’m freshly out of fucks on self-improvement. I don’t even know why I’m so mad about this (yet) and that’s my point. I don’t have to sit here regurgitating why I’m mad? Where is this coming from? What is it reflecting to me? What is it reflecting about me? About my state? Bla, bla, bla … I’m mad and I’m very much good with that. As is. I’m tired of the loop. So tired, that the mad that I’m feeling, feels better. And I’m not feeling I’m on the loop. What set me off today was
ancakuns
Oct 15, 20251 min read
Blog 19: On Truth - A Multidimensional Perspective
Recently, I took part in a situation that kept unfolding over days and days with the themes of safety, integrity, betrayal, transparency,...
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Jan 25, 20252 min read
Blog 18: Who Needs To Be Seen, Heard and Understood?
This need to be acknowledged is a real thing … a real longing and a real sorrow when it isn’t fulfilled. And we drag that need with us,...
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Dec 6, 20245 min read
Blog 17: A Confusion Of Creation From Union: What Is Sorrow Doing There?
Most of us don’t think of the state of creation as a pool of sorrow. If you’re an artist that uses skills to transmute pain into works of...
ancakuns
Oct 1, 20244 min read
Blog 16: The Idea Of The Partner Within Higher Consciousness
It seems the more one comes into alignment with his/her authenticity and a certain level of expansion is reached, the idea of...
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Jul 5, 20246 min read
Blog 15: Still "You", But In "The Other"
Who is “the other” but you as the opposite … or a good degree of different. But when it’s the opposite, it’s extra spicy. They know which...
ancakuns
Jul 5, 20243 min read
Blog 14: What Is My Purpose?
I feel Spirit struggle with the question. It’s coming back with “this is N/A”. It felt like, if there is a question there, it’s not...
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May 17, 20243 min read
Blog 13: How Are You Embracing Infinity in a Finite World?
The answer came before the question: Surrender! But … I’ve been surrendering … and allowing. Yes, you have been, but now, do it for real....
ancakuns
Feb 5, 20245 min read
Blog 12: Integrating The Limitless You
Stay still. So still that you can barely feel yourself breathing. Within the stillness, a great integration is taking place. A new galaxy...
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Jan 10, 20245 min read
Blog 11: From Manifesting to Existing
The concept of manifesting came up today, and, of course, the word itself has been flying around for decades, with all its different...
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Nov 7, 20236 min read
Blog 10: Unity Consciousness - First Impressions
We have indeed stepped into a new aeon. I’m writing these words in the 2 weeks period between the solar eclipse of October 2023 and the...
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Oct 27, 20238 min read
Blog 8: The act of forgiving
It’s very clear now that the act of forgiving is all about “me”. It is about my relationship, or better yet, my attachment to whatever...
ancakuns
Jun 24, 20224 min read
Blog 7: Moment to moment
There is no choice in living moment to moment. We think we can deliberately live like that but we can’t. Or we can, for a few seconds to...
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May 4, 20222 min read
Blog 6: Letting go
I was listening to Baba Ram Dass telling the story of how LSD had no effect on his teacher, Maharajji. This story really made me ponder...
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May 4, 20222 min read
Blog 5: It’s all the same thing
I feel spirit laughing sometimes at the notion that it’s all the same thing, but that we can’t seem to grasp it. The vast, imaginary...
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May 4, 20222 min read
Blog 4: Meditation is the background!
The next meditation is about allowing. My efforts in finding freedom have to shift towards effortlessness and being; a simplicity of the...
ancakuns
Apr 5, 20224 min read
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